Wednesday, September 28, 2005

A new day

So, this morning was a new day!

I overslept, got to work late... and then, I decided to leave early. I had been invited to attend a brainstorming session at my church regarding membership. It was an enlightening discussion, and it felt great to have my opinion valued by so many. I am making an effort to volunteer and spend more time at the church.

Just from my few hours there today, I can already feel a huge difference in my attitude. I was feeling grumpy at work and just walking into the building at church made my spirit lift. Now that I have a new spring to my step (literally with my Nike Shox), I am off to the gym.

This is the first time this week that I have felt the motivation to work out. Tonight, I am looking forward to it. I can't wait to sweat out the frustrations of the week - and even catch up on some good reading while on the elliptical machine. So, I'm off to continue my day of spiritual improvement.

ps - I also received The Power of Full Engagement today, so I am excited about breaking into it. Perhaps it will be post-worthy in the future.

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Morning Sickness?

Lately, I am feeling a bit confused. I am frustrated with something, but I can't quite put my finger on it. I am struggling in a battle and am not sure who or what I am fighting. So this evening, I am tackling my problem with mornings.

It isn't anything new for me to hate mornings. I have NEVER been a morning person. I do not wake up each day ready to embrace the chill and thrill of 6am. Instead, I tend to do the exact opposite. I no longer wake to an alarm - my husband has since banned it due to the buzzing every 7 minutes for at least an hour of the morning. Now, I wake to my husband's coaxing. He is so very patient with me - but, I can't help but feel utter disdain for the one who has forced me to literally wake up and smell the coffee. After the 3rd waking, when he's gotten through to me, he typically disappears into the den to avoid my pleasantries. By now, he is fully showered, dressed and ready for work and uses the time I spend to get moving productively - checking his voicemail, email, catching up on the morning news, etc.

My annoyance with him is not so much due to the fact that he came bearing the news of morning. Instead, I am jealous that I am so unable to embrace mornings the way he does. He is soo energetic & happy in the mornings. This makes me want to curl back in bed even more. It merely points out, through the blazing contrast, that I am completely unmotivated to even get in the shower.

I have tried to be a morning person. I would love to say that I have the motivation to get up and take Nash for a run each morning at 6am before work. Instead, I can honestly say that my time with Nash is spent cuddled up, fast asleep until Jeff wakes the two of us.

How can I get motivated? Can someone (i.e. I) become a morning person? I desperately wish it to be possible.

I just ordered a book on Amazon by Jim Loehr titled "The Power of Full Engagement: Managing Energy, Not Time, Is the Key to High Performance and Personal Renewal". As you can see, there are clearly mixed reviews out there. However, it was personally recommended to me by a co-worker who loses energy each day at 2pm (her naptime). It has helped her work through that hurdle and maximize her high points and minimize the lows (at 2pm). So, we'll see how this works out for me.

Paris lost.

Apologies for not finishing my Paris journal online. I decided it was more fun to keep the journal and flip through the pages & pages of writing and paste in some pics.

Sometimes it's refreshing to have something meaningful that is not digitized ;)